"Whoever gives heed to instruction prospers, and blessed is he who TRUSTS in the Lord." -Proverbs 16:20
"A greedy man stirs up dissension, but he who TRUSTS in the Lord will prosper." -Proverbs 28:25
"Fear of man will prove to be a snare, but whoever TRUSTS in the Lord is kept safe." -Proverbs 29:25
Trust, here it is again. This time it isn't about our husbands trusting us, but rather us trusting in the Lord. I have always said, "Yes, I have faith in God. I trust the Lord do to His will", and it's easy to when things are going great, but when my world is falling apart around me, do I really trust Him? When I was 15, I lost my grandfather to cancer. And I can honestly say that I truly trusted in God's plan & His will. Did it make it easier? No, but I knew it was in His plan. Last year, I lost a dear high school friend in a sudden accident. We hadn't seen each other or spoken in the last couple of years before his death, but he was a huge part of my life--we were best friends for 4 years. This shook me to the core. Maybe it's because my relationship with God over the years hadn't been as strong as before; maybe it was because this young man was my age, but I was mad at God...really mad. I didn't understand & I didn't trust Him. Then as I sat at his memorial service & saw the thousands of high school students that he taught & the lives he had impact I knew God had a greater plan. As those students sat in their grief, wondering the same questions I did, they also heard the Gospel. They heard about a young man who loved everyone, brought good to everyone he met, had the greatest smile & funniest sense of humor & a man who loved God. Some of these kids may have never seen anyone like this or heard of God, but because of this young man's death they did. I heard that it was okay to be mad at God, it was okay to wonder why, but I also heard, "Trust. Trust me that he filled his purpose. Trust that I've had a plan all along. Trust me, Ashley." There are still some days when I ask why, but I'm reminded of Psalms 139:13-16.
"For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully & wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the ear, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be."
Our days were numbered before we were even born. God is in control & His plan is far greater than anything that I could ever imagine. Trust in Him, Ashley. Trust in His plan, His Word, trust in His timing.