I dream of open fields, watching my kids running & playing from sun up to sun down.
I dream of a small community of friends.
I dream of a garden in my backyard.
I dream of neighbors that are a acres away.
I dream of country roads.
I dream of watching the sun come up & go down in a rocking chair on our front porch with my man. My heart longs for these things, and I wonder if they will ever come to be.
My husband's business is based here in Houston. I have a love/hate relationship with it. I love his job because it has allowed me to stay home with our sweet kids, it pays the bills. It's provided a wonderful home for us. Since it's a family run business, it's nice that he is essentially his own boss...it definitely has it's perks. I hate his job because it's based in Houston. It will never leave Houston & we will never leave Houston while our kids are young.
I don't want to seem ungrateful because I'm very grateful. God has been so good to us. He brought me to Houston 7 years ago & this is the city where I found my husband. I know He has a plan. His plan is far greater than I could ever imagine, but sometimes I wonder, why does God put these certain desires in our hearts? And is it a God thing or is a selfish me thing?
Today I choose to be thankful--thankful for the smell of fresh cut wood (even if it's from the house that's being built behind us). I'm thankful that Target is only 5 minutes away. I'm thankful for family that is close by & some only a phone call away. I'm thankful for the land that we have that we can escape to on the weekends. I'm thankful for the sweetest neighbors who have become very special friends. I'm thankful that my husband works so hard, so I can stay home with my sweet babies.